TWO DAYS!

Austin stopped napping a while ago, but some days I just need a little break. Today, a rainy dreary day, was one of them. I got him to lie down with me and when I took note of the time, 1:28PM, I got some butterflies thinking that in exactly two days, I'd be lying down on the cutting board. Truth is though, I'm really calm. I went through some ups and downs, and after the pre-op appt. last week where we handed over a big ol' check, I've put the questions out of my mind and feel really at ease about it all, and overall pretty excited. 

Here are pictures taken tonight. Weight: 121 lbs (oh yeah! I've lost about 7 lbs in the past couple weeks!)

Flexing: 

Au Natural:

The SKIN

Back to natural...

And a little flex

Up until this point my main concern has been if the "if I die..." question. But, it's just not going to happen. I shouldn't worry about it as it's silly even to put energy into. So, then my next main "worry" is that I will for some reason start to question this decision after I've already gone through with it. Which, I've realized, will be quite a waste of energy as there won't be anything to do at that point besides go ahead and enjoy my wrinkle-free mid-section, so again, it's silly. My most recent concern is that I'm not doing enough, and I might as well have my boobs inflated as then Chris and I would have something fun to play with as an added bonus after surgery, but again, silly to worry about as it's not going to happen. After I realized I'm spending time worrying about needless things, I've been able to just be happy and excited about the outcome. 

I could spend time worrying about the kids, how they are going to handle things, if they will eat well and be happy while I'm gone, but the truth is they will be surrounded by people who love them second to none, and that's pretty cool. Things will be different without me here, but the kids will be safe, they will be happy, and if they miss me a little, that's OK too. If they don't, then all the better for everybody!

So, two days to go, a week of lying around and taking it slow, and then I'll be good to go, right?! Well, that's how it's playing out in my head anyways, so wish me luck :)